I have an annoying habit of coming up with grand plans and then not following up on them. My recent castle in the air is rowing. For a year I have been thinking about it, then a few months ago I did some research and I found the Thames Rowing Club. They are open to beginners and to women. The open house was when I was in Seattle, but the first meeting was this morning.
I set the alarm and was all ready to go.
I woke up at 6:30 and laid there. I didn’t have to leave the house for another hour but I decided to not go.
Why?
The main reason is they ask that you work out every weekend 8-12:30 and one night during the week. Yesterday at work I was thinking about planning a weekend trip to the Lake District and then I remembered that I would have rowing.
The other reason is my left knee has been a bit evil recently and I was worried about it. Sometimes I can feel the knee cap pop out and I have to put it back in. Is kinda annoying and a little painful.
Third and final was pure fear- fear of breaking out of my rut. . . fear of meeting new people. . . fear of feeling judged because I am 3.5 stone overweight and what the hell am I doing wasting their time– blah, blah, blah.
So yeah. Didn’t go.
One of these days the fierce warrior goddess that I am in my head will catch up to the real me.
So no rowing for me- but I’m not going to be a lump anymore either.
I went for a nice long 2 1/2 hour walk (saw you running on Trinity Road Jen. Almost said hi, but didn’t want to knock you out of the zone.)
I will go on another walk tomorrow. And the day after that. . .
September 15th, 2007 at 5:18 pm
well, the knee thing definitely doesn’t sound good. but i know how you feel - i can be very nervous about new situations where i don’t know anyone or anything. unfortunately it only gets easier when you practice doing it. sometimes i can talk myself into it, other times i let myself be intimidated. sigh.
(i’m so oblivious - you should’ve said hi! though i was probably not altogether pleasant smelling